I dunno if that's really the right term, but I've noticed lately that, whenever Ryouta does something involving cross-dressing or acting...I dunno, "girly" would be the term I guess?...it just bugged me for some reason. That became especially apparent to me in the last storyline.
That bit in one of the videos where I declared I was quitting? Well, obviously I didn't, but I wasn't entirely joking about that. I don't know why it bothered me as much as it did, and the more I think about it, the more I find that I really have no reason for it to bug me. Honestly, once I could force my way past those grousings, I really got into the role...it just took a bit more work getting past them than it really should.
I've also found myself being genuinely embarrassed to bring up the fact that I enjoy this game in other communities I'm part of. The closest I ever got until now was doing a review of Hatogate for a gaming community I'm part of...and even then, I worded things to the point that you'd have no clue I had any involvement in the game's making.
So this is more a case of me telling the part of myself expressing that unwarranted aggrevation and embarrassment to be gone, and accepting my connection with Ryouta for what it is: something I genuinely enjoy.
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Date: 2/13/13 02:20 (UTC)That bit in one of the videos where I declared I was quitting? Well, obviously I didn't, but I wasn't entirely joking about that. I don't know why it bothered me as much as it did, and the more I think about it, the more I find that I really have no reason for it to bug me. Honestly, once I could force my way past those grousings, I really got into the role...it just took a bit more work getting past them than it really should.
I've also found myself being genuinely embarrassed to bring up the fact that I enjoy this game in other communities I'm part of. The closest I ever got until now was doing a review of Hatogate for a gaming community I'm part of...and even then, I worded things to the point that you'd have no clue I had any involvement in the game's making.
So this is more a case of me telling the part of myself expressing that unwarranted aggrevation and embarrassment to be gone, and accepting my connection with Ryouta for what it is: something I genuinely enjoy.