I've spent the past hour trying to get to sleep. I can't because there's a party going on upstairs, and everyone there is drunk and loud as all hell, including one shipmate in particular who has been inadvertently driving me nuts. How's she been doing it? By becoming really damned attractive to me.
Part of me wants to plug my headphones into my radio and drown them out.
Part of me wants to complain to the building manager and get the party shut down.
What really disgusts me, though, is that a MAJOR part of me wants to go up there and attempt to take advantage of her drunkenness (and a lot of people around here's desire to see me drunk) and get laid, violating my ENTIRE moral code. I KNOW I'd hate myself for it for the rest of my life, but I want to anyway.
Gods but I make myself so sick sometimes...the fuck is WRONG with me!?
*grabs headphones* Option A it is. G'night world. *looks in mirror* And you can go fuck off and die, you sick sunuvabitch.
Part of me wants to plug my headphones into my radio and drown them out.
Part of me wants to complain to the building manager and get the party shut down.
What really disgusts me, though, is that a MAJOR part of me wants to go up there and attempt to take advantage of her drunkenness (and a lot of people around here's desire to see me drunk) and get laid, violating my ENTIRE moral code. I KNOW I'd hate myself for it for the rest of my life, but I want to anyway.
Gods but I make myself so sick sometimes...the fuck is WRONG with me!?
*grabs headphones* Option A it is. G'night world. *looks in mirror* And you can go fuck off and die, you sick sunuvabitch.