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18 Jun 2006
That's precisely the percentage of tournament-level Yu-Gi-Oh players who outperform me.
That fact never came any clearer to me than today, when on top of going 0-4 in a local tournament, collectively between all 8 duels I didn't do enough damage to win ONE. I could have condensed every hit I dealt into one single blow and it wouldn't have been fatal. And I never lost from losing all of my Life Points either...every time I was in a "do or die" situation, I was LITERALLY one card or a few Life Points short of what I needed to turn the duel around. Like I would have Demise and his Ritual in my hand, but would have nothing to sacrifice for it, or I would be in a situation where bringing Relinquished back from my Graveyard could give me a win a few turns later and I'd have Premature Burial in my hand, but not have enough Life Points to pay for its activation.
EVERY MOTHER FUCKING DUEL ended in me being given 2 options: Surrender, or be defeated. Lose, or lose. No bluffs, no salvation, no "heart of the cards", just defeat.
And this from a deck that got my hopes and confidence in my ability up by winning 9 in a row, including a first-turn OTK. THAT was the part that truly broke me today.
I went in there today thinking I'd actually built a deck that could COMPETE, and hell, maybe even WIN. I was thinking I might actually be able to win a fucking tournament for the first time in ages.
And, as usual....I was dead fucking wrong.
Needless to say, said deck no longer exists. It WAS my favorite until today, despite its constant 50/50ish track record at any tournament I ran it in...today it just completely and utterly failed. While I have no intention of giving up on the game, it's time I gave up on a futile idea and moved on.
WILREN'S TRADEMARK DECK
October 17, 2002 - June 18, 2006
Good riddance.
</bitch>
That fact never came any clearer to me than today, when on top of going 0-4 in a local tournament, collectively between all 8 duels I didn't do enough damage to win ONE. I could have condensed every hit I dealt into one single blow and it wouldn't have been fatal. And I never lost from losing all of my Life Points either...every time I was in a "do or die" situation, I was LITERALLY one card or a few Life Points short of what I needed to turn the duel around. Like I would have Demise and his Ritual in my hand, but would have nothing to sacrifice for it, or I would be in a situation where bringing Relinquished back from my Graveyard could give me a win a few turns later and I'd have Premature Burial in my hand, but not have enough Life Points to pay for its activation.
EVERY MOTHER FUCKING DUEL ended in me being given 2 options: Surrender, or be defeated. Lose, or lose. No bluffs, no salvation, no "heart of the cards", just defeat.
And this from a deck that got my hopes and confidence in my ability up by winning 9 in a row, including a first-turn OTK. THAT was the part that truly broke me today.
I went in there today thinking I'd actually built a deck that could COMPETE, and hell, maybe even WIN. I was thinking I might actually be able to win a fucking tournament for the first time in ages.
And, as usual....I was dead fucking wrong.
Needless to say, said deck no longer exists. It WAS my favorite until today, despite its constant 50/50ish track record at any tournament I ran it in...today it just completely and utterly failed. While I have no intention of giving up on the game, it's time I gave up on a futile idea and moved on.
WILREN'S TRADEMARK DECK
"LAST RITES"
October 17, 2002 - June 18, 2006
Good riddance.
</bitch>
Being a pervert and a gentleman is not a healthy mix. Not for the mind and soul, anyway. I've lived believing that a balance of opposites is necessary in life, but these two extremes never seem to settle with me.
On one hand, I want to treat every female I know with respect and dignity to prove that I don't simply see women as sex objects, but on the other, the fantasies that go through my mind are just plain atrocious.
It's driven me to post crap like this despite knowing that someone's going to find it offensive and how much I HATE offending people I like. And yes, I know it seems contradictory that I'd be ashamed of that "offer" I made and yet go on and advertise it (seeing as it's still open) again. I don't get it either.
Confucius says a wise man worries whether or not he understands himself...well, I guess I can't claim to be wise then, because there's no worry there at all, I know for a FACT I don't understand myself.
... ... I think I need sleep. Even for not making sense this isn't making any sense to me.
On one hand, I want to treat every female I know with respect and dignity to prove that I don't simply see women as sex objects, but on the other, the fantasies that go through my mind are just plain atrocious.
It's driven me to post crap like this despite knowing that someone's going to find it offensive and how much I HATE offending people I like. And yes, I know it seems contradictory that I'd be ashamed of that "offer" I made and yet go on and advertise it (seeing as it's still open) again. I don't get it either.
Confucius says a wise man worries whether or not he understands himself...well, I guess I can't claim to be wise then, because there's no worry there at all, I know for a FACT I don't understand myself.
... ... I think I need sleep. Even for not making sense this isn't making any sense to me.
